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Save your breath -HPspoiler- by kyla79 Save your breath -HPspoiler- by kyla79
Another fanart of my favourite scene in Deathly Hallows.
More to come!

Poor Snape... I hate Lily for breaking his heart (though I love her character, it's just so sad for Snape...)

I need to thanks :iconphoq: for the wonderful textures and tips she recently gave! thanks a lot, pal!!
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Serendipity1889 Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2015  Hobbyist Photographer
Lily looks so done...because she is! Ugh! Hate this moment!
TeranMingOgilthorpe Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2014
Is there a name for couples where one person has black hair and the other has red/orange? I see it. A lot. (and I absolutely love it). It is usually the man/boy who has black hair and the woman/girl has red hair.
TeranMingOgilthorpe Featured By Owner Sep 21, 2014
Ugh this whole thing is so sad D:
KeySketch Featured By Owner Jul 14, 2014  Student General Artist
My feelz  :( its was beautiful yet sad 
LadySuzaku Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2014
This is a beautiful picture and captures the scene perfectly. You really feel Snape's desperation to make himself heard and Lily's feelings of being clearly fed up with Snape's behavior.

As badly as I felt for Snape, he brought it on himself. Yes, James acted like a jerk, so did Sirius. but there were other factors unrelated to them that played a role in Snape becoming a Death Eater. That was made painfully clear from when he and Lily first boarded the train to Hogwarts.

You can feel badly about Snape having a rotten childhood. You can sympathize with him being bullied ( I was bullied myself). However, keep in mind that, not only did James save Snape's life (he was nearly killed by the Whomping Willow when he tried to find out where Remus wa going); James grew up. So did Sirius. Neither of them were particularly proud of how they acted and admitted it (at least Sirius did) and began acting civilized. Snape, however, kept down his path of darkness.

Lily had been expressly clear; she made excuse after excuse for Snape all the time, for years, by the sounds of it. Starting from when they were children up until their fifth year, when Lily was finally pushed to the breaking point when Snape, her 'best friend', called her Mudblood.

And it was James Potter, the big-headed idiot who was picking on Snape, who snarled at him for daring to sling that word at Lily.

That moment where Snape called Lily Mudblood was the last straw of many. So even though it was sad what happened, Lily cannot and shouldn't be faulted for breaking off her friendship with Snape because he showed he wasn't about to change, despite Lily's best efforts to get him to see the damage he was doing.
Silnroz Featured By Owner Nov 4, 2013
You can't just apologize for something like that, and that's not even covering that Snape isn't the kind of man that deserves forgiveness.

He was using the dark arts and Lily was willing to look over that. He then expressed belief in an ideology that wants her and everyone in her family murdered. Severus Snape made his bed and he was to big a baby to lay in it without trying to make the rest of the world miserable alongside him.

His entire character is based off three things, His justified hatred of James Potter, his unrequited crush that he should have let go of over a decade before the series, and his monstrous behavior in the classroom to Harry and other students. if you tack on his reasons for being doubly cruel to Harry you get a character that should have just died a death eater. he didn't deserve redemption.
LordGodsServant Featured By Owner Nov 21, 2013
I think the simple fact was that, yes he was a horrible despicable person most of the time, but that he did have a better side (though it was barely ever shown.)  The true centerpoint of the whole series can be summed up in one word, "love."  Lily's relationship with him was the most, possibly only, beautiful thing in Snape's life.  But he chose eventually to let his hurts and fears define him, to mold him into an increasingly horrible person.  And it cost him Lily, a price he privately realized was never worth the cost.  So he became a Death Eater.
BUT, he eventually made the right choice, to fall back on and protect Lily, and eventually Harry because of that beautiful thing that was the brightest spot in his life.  I think he's more realistic because he isn't pleasant really.  Yes, he was horrible and despicable to Harry because he reminded him so much of James who had made his life miserable.  But behind the scenes, he did braver things than anyone Harry knew so that Harry could live.  
So in the end, I was happy for his redemption, he may not have been a knight in shining armor, but in his own way, he was a good man.
Silnroz Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2013
Slapping a new coat of paint on a building doesn't change the fact it's lined with asbestos.
firestar541 Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
The whole point of redemption is that no one deserves it. Even if Snape was a bitter @££hole most of his life, he still managed to save Harry and do some good. He even was suspicious of Quirrell in the first book, and went to lengths to find out his business. Because he was responsible for Lily's death, he tried to make up for it by being a double agent and protecting his son. While also bullying him and his friends who were merely children, yes, but Snape could have done more damage and harm to Dumbledore and the school if he wished.
maly40 Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
poor snape, he didnt mean to insutl lily like that
he loved her... :(
FanatiacT-Rex Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2013
When I read this part, I keep thinking, "Lily, just accept his apology. He took the time and effort to camp outside of the common room just to apologize to you for something he said by accident. He's truly sorry, can't you see it in his eyes? You're his only true friend. He would never try to harm you." He probably would have avoided becoming a Death Eater if he hadn't lost Lily as a friend.
LadySuzaku Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2014
From the sounds of it, nothing Lily did or said made any difference before. Snape was hanging around students who would later become Death Eaters before this event and it was unlikely he would walk away from them. He'd called other Muggle-borns Mudblood before her and there were clear incidents where he participated in harming other students.

Snape wasn't going to change. Not even for Lily and she realized this the instant he called her that name.
firestar541 Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
It's hard to be a friend to someone that toxic. I agree with LadySuzaku, it took Lily's death to make Snape realise what he was doing and how it affected people.
kuramaloveryum Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2013
I know what Snape said was wrong, but he did it accidently, out of anger and embarressment. Lily knew she was his only friend and I honestly think that if she'd forgiven him, she could've pulled him out of that dark, bitter cycle (he had reason to be anger and bitter of course, but look where it led him T.T ) I wished she'd forgiven him, he was so sincere. I understand that she was justifiable in her anger, and it could've taken even a few weeks for her to forgive him, but...I don't know, it is all so complex and you caught that wonderfully. I don't know if you did this on purpose but I like the kind of tired, strained look of Lily's eyes.
OliviaTheDragon Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
yeah i know wut u mean!! I would have forgiven him... :/
kuramaloveryum Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2013
I would've too. After having a very long talk with him and keeping my eye on him.
Martiangirl Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2013
I think it was more than just the one-time offense. Lily said that Severus was friends with a gang of Slytherins who would all later become Death Eaters. She also said that she didn't like Sev hanging out with them, but apparently he didn't listen to her (for whatever reason), and he was becoming more and more obsessed with Dark Arts (remember those curses he invented in HBP). Maybe the bullying made Severus believe that having his own Slytherin friends would grant him better protection and gain power to be less defenseless. Who knows? All Lily knows is that Severus didn't see anything wrong with being friends with people who hate her kind and probably engaged in shady acts. It was mentioned that she was constantly making excuses for Severus, which says a lot about which path Snape was heading. The "mudblood" incident was just the straw that broke the camel's back.

Don't get me wrong, I love Severus and feel bad that he screwed himself over through careless anger and hurt pride, but this split was a long time coming. Young Severus had a choice between being with Lily or being with his hateful gang, and in the end, he couldn't give up the latter even for the person he loved most. He wanted both, but couldn't have it. That's when Lily decided to call it quits, because she realized that no matter what she did to try to steer Sev away, he wanted to join them and was consequently emulating them and their hateful distain for muggleborns.
I think that's what makes Snape's story so much more tragic. Once he loses Lily's friendship, he feels that there is nothing left for him except joining the Death Eaters (he could have quit his gang as a show of how serious he was win back Lily's respect). It is only when he sees his friend threatened that he realizes that he loves Lily more than he cares about power, but by then it's too late.
snowwaterfall Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I completely agree that Sev must have found some sort of protection in studying the dark arts. In my opinion, I think it really was James and Sirius that kind of pushed him into that. If not completely, then they definitely had a huge part to do with it. I honestly think if they had just left Snape alone, Lily might have been able to change his views and steer him away from the dark arts. Perhaps Snape may not have even gotten interested in the dark arts at all if he had not been so mercilessly bullied during his school days.

The other reason that I think you failed to mention that had to do with Sev becoming a death eater is his being neglected as a child. His father was a muggle, so Sev probably didn't exactly get a very good impression of muggles, not to mention that Petunia (Lily's muggle sister) had always treated him with disdain and a lot of other muggle children probably did the same or they just ignored him. I know what that feels like. It really hurts. The Marauders were probably the ones that pushed him to the point where he had reached his limits. Now, I love all of their characters and who they turned out to be (with the exception of Pettigrew) but James and Sirius just bullied him constantly and mercilessly while Pettigrew stood by laughing and Lupin did nothing, ignoring the situation, as if pretending nothing was occurring, probably triggering bad memories of Snape's days before Hogwarts. Granted, Snape was antagonistic and kind of presented himself as a dislikable person, but I think that was just an act that he put on out of a sense of self defense. Being loving and caring on the outside is hard to do when you were shown none at all in your life, even by your parents. (Before he met Lily)

As to why he joined the group of people he did, I believe it was also an act of trying to fit in and a cry for positive attention as well as a sense of belonging, even if their beliefs were wrong. Attention is all kids really want when they're young. Snape had never even been given attention at his own home, making him feel like an outcast at a place that he was supposed to feel safe, secure and loved. All he really wanted was to fit in. Lily was in an entirely different house as well, so that made things difficult too, I can imagine, as students usually bonded with members of their own house to make their school days easier.

But, regarding the comment of him being "defenseless", that I politely disagree with. I never viewed him as defenseless. He always stood up for himself and never backed down, though it usually resulted in him being humiliated. I came to hate James' character for what he did to Snape, though this was probably partly out of jealousy he had towards Lily's and Sev's relationship.

All in all, you presented some great logical points. Great job :)
Martiangirl Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2013
I personally never thought Snape as defenseless, but I can see that I should have worded that differently. I was suggesting that Snape himself thought of himself like that (at least in the beginning when he was very young). He viewed himself as lacking power to defend himself (against his father, possibly, against his bullies) and that's a reason why he probably felt drawn to the dark arts, because they promised him power.

One thing I find interesting is that no one really talks about is Snape's mother and her possible influence on her son. I know a lot of fans seem to like to imagine Tobias as Severus's "bad, possibly abusive" parent and Eileen as the "good parent", probably because of the occulmency lessons where she was shown cowering from Tobias. This is just my opinion, but I think both parents were probably equally screwed up, and that maybe his mother might have been an influence in actively fostering some of Severus's initial anti-muggle views as a youngster. Of course there's no real proof of this, but it's more of a gut feeling. His parents we are told are always fighting against each other. Even if Tobias was an abusive bastard, that alone should have probably led Sev more to the conclusion that his father was a jerk, not that all muggles are inferior to wizards. He already seemed to be somewhat contemptuous of muggles by the time he met Petunia, so unless every single encounter he ever had with muggles up until that point had been equally horrible, someone probably had to teach him such views. Eileen, we know, is from a pureblood family (most we are shown generally tend to view muggles as inferior) and even though she married a muggle, the fallout from her bad marriage may have led her to fall back into old thinking, or at the very least use her son to get back at her husband by teaching him to despise everything about his father, including his being a muggle.
kuramaloveryum Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2013
That is all very very true. Thank you for point that out. That is a well thought out, logical thing :) I like that you pointed out that he could've been in the dark arts for protection (given his bullied history). Dark arts after all allow you to do things and not care about the bad. He is also tragic because he is half-blood. He basically hates himself for being this way, hates part of himself simply for much to think.

But now that you've pointed it all does seem to suggest that yes his love was powerful, but just at the wrong time :( Good points all around!
BlazBlood Featured By Owner May 30, 2015  Student Writer
I wish he got with Lily though.......Now this is making me all sad!
JustARandomIdiot Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
No, you two, don't pull those faces, it's making me sad.
RaVeNtHeTiTaN Featured By Owner Aug 30, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
3 am in the morning, snape banging at her door, begging her to forgive him, and she still dosent accept it? im starting to think lily isnt all that nice in the first place....
LadySuzaku Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2014
Lily was shown to be perfectly nice. She just refused to put up with Snape's behavior any longer. She couldn't change him and he wouldn't change, not even for her.

Breaking off a toxic friendship isn't meant to be 'nice', but Lily shouldn't have to tolerate being treated like that.
Maaronn Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2012  Student Digital Artist
I hate the movies for not including something like this...

So sad.... D'':
Sounddrive Featured By Owner Dec 19, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
When I read that scene in the book . . . I was shocked and saddened immensely.
rababco Featured By Owner Sep 21, 2011  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Although I didn't really like Snape at first I did feel bad for him when I found out he really loved Lilly. I just wish he would have treated Harry better; he didn't deserve to be treated that way just because he looked like James. I wish he would have treated him more like a son (NOT Snarry, that's gross sorry) cause I think that's what Lilly would have wanted. I remember even Harry was angry at his father when he found out the way had treated Snape in school. I never did realize why Lilly fell in love with James the just seemed so different. Then opposites attract and maybe he changed as he got older. I'm glad Harry gained such a strong repect for him it was just too bad it wasn't until he had already died. I think Lilly should have forgiven him though we don't mean even to our closest friends.
Larimir Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2011
Touching... :(
PsychotropicFox Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I don't think Lilly and Snape's relationship was any better than Bella and Edward's in Twilight.
It's still one-sided, it's still unhealthy. Lilly felt minimal affections for him and essentially turned her back. I feel so little pity for Severus. He tormented Harry for years because he reminded him of his father, what is a childish way to act.
luvnote4u Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2011
This scene broke my heart. You captured it so well. Nice job.
SailorSun546 Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
D8 Noooo! Oh gosh, the look on his face! You draw some pretty fantastic facial expressions, he look so desperate. I love the texture, the lighting, their poses, the fold in their clothes and the curtains are beautiful, this is just a really great and sad piece. :heart:
crimsoncrushedrose Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2011   General Artist
This is lovely! For some reason, though, her expression keeps reminding me of Dr. Girlfriend from Venture Brothers....probably just my bizarre brain, though.
inkbby Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2011
Love it! I always picture Lily as a tiny adorable little thing. <3 good job!
S-Choco Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2011
It was nighttime. Lily, who was wearing a dressing gown, stood with her arms folded in front of the portrait of the Fat Lady, at the entrance to Gryffindor Tower.
"I only came out because Mary told me you were threatening to sleep here."
"I was, I would have done. I never meant to call you Mudblood, it just-"
"Slipped out?" There was no pity in Lily's voice." (CH33 of HP7)

I laughed out loud when I read that he was about to sleep outside if she didn't come out, this scene definitely made my heart ache though. You captured their emotions quite well. :)
loopieg Featured By Owner Jul 7, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
do you mean the movie or the book?
Elora-Kay Featured By Owner Apr 28, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
they look a bit too old here. Not like 15 & 16 (17?) year olds should look like.
I think it's just snape though. He looks too much like now-a-days Snape, not cutesy, picked on, neglected, totally gorgeous teen-ager he ought to be.
again, sry.
droxy Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
OOH I remeber this! still great on the second view.
tomatoboylover Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
I love Snape :D
Ca-Cha Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2011
well he's been a jerk ;.;
LilyHellsing Featured By Owner Mar 28, 2011
Snape's robes look so...monk-like. XD Foreshadowing to his sex life? Jk jk...very different style. :) sad though...damn Lily Evans...
blueberryking Featured By Owner Mar 18, 2011   Writer
i don't like snape coz he caused a lot of his own problems... but i kinda feel sorry for him
jellyfishy7 Featured By Owner Jan 17, 2011
I hate the fact that she picked an arrogant jerk like James instead of the guy who'd been her best friend from the beginning. Alright, calling her mudblood was horrible but he apologised sooooo much. I would've especially given in especially if I saw my best friend in that much and regret.
Almesiva-Moonshadow Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
C'mon Lily,forgive him, dont be such an idiot...:(
blueberrymonkey Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2011
he deserved it.
He called his best friend a mudblood, it's his fault for being so disloyal to lily, who actually tried HELPING him, (would Ron ever call Hermione a mudblood?) and he's just foul to everyone, that's why everyone hates him! Besides, I don't see how Lily could just suddenly GROW to love Snape when he's just so... foul. Even J.K Rowling said she couldn't imagine anyone in love with this foul greasy potions master. But I respect the fact that he has done some gutsy stuff, but still doesn't make him a good person. Sorry, Snape-lovers but that's just me.

God I overused the word foul
AngelLuvers Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2010
I feel soo bad for both of them.
LadySuzaku Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2014
Me, too. :(  Snape may love Lily, but he had this coming. And poor Lily was put in a tough position; she most likely hoped it would never come to this, but, it did...
Crimson-Mane Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2010  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Naw.. poor Snape..

Great expressions. :D
Vampiressartist Featured By Owner Nov 5, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
I love how you gave Lily CURVES! She's beautiful and feminine. I'm glad you didn't give her one of those cookie-cutter model-thin physique.
deliciouskamepi Featured By Owner Nov 1, 2010
And everything change after that =(
Poor Severus ...

(PS : love the drawing !)
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